Gary Allan Opens Up To People Magazine About His Wife’s Suicide

Brody Vercher | April 13th, 2007

Gary Allan with his wife Angela Gary Allan’s music is highly esteemed by me, so when I found out that he revealed what happened to his wife for the first time in People magazine I went out and bought a copy. It’s a depressingly detailed account and gives fans a glimpse into what Allan must have been feeling and the effect it had on his music. “He poured out his agony in the studio, resulting in 2005’s heart-wrenchingly personal Tough All Over. ‘It was scary,’ says his close friend and songwriting partner Odie Blackman, ‘seeing him go through it and knowing that the music was some kind of therapy.'”

The article is written in the first person from Gary Allan’s point of view. He starts from the point he met his wife, Angela, for the first time and asked her to marry him in 2000. They moved to Tennessee in 2003 where Angela suffered a lot of allergies which triggered migraines.

Her migraines were so bad that she would black out and have to go lie down. She was depressed, but because the depression seemed to start with the migraines, she never really got properly treated for the depression. She got treated for the migraines.

He then goes on to talk about the night that she died. He says she was physically sick and he had just got home. He ended up taking the kids to a Halloween party and tucked them in bed when they got back. Allan mentions that his wife was acting out of character.

She asked me to check on one of the kids. I said, “I just put them to bed, everyone’s fine. I took care of it all.” She sat there for a minute, and she said, “Would you go get me a Coke? I feel like I’m sick.” So I went into the kitchen and heard a loud pop. It sounded like she had thrown something. I had a gun safe underneath the bed, and she had taken out a pistol, stuck it in her mouth and pulled the trigger. She was on the bed. She was gone.

In the rest of the article he talks about the way life has been since that night. He didn’t do anything for his depression at first, then he found therapy in writing, took an anti-depressant, and went to counseling with his kids. He says “the toughest part is just letting go of the guilt. She never told me she was thinking about killing herself, ever.”

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  1. Vanessa
    April 13, 2007 at 9:33 pm

    Good post Brody, this article was hard to read, especially seeing his wife in a picture with him, and they looked so happy. The album “Tough All Over” makes more sense to me now, some of those songs were about her, and its sad to think about all of the kids left behind.

  2. Baron Lane
    April 14, 2007 at 7:03 am

    A sad and terrible story. It’s a shame he did it in People instead of a more dignified format, but it’s hard to judge a guy that’s been all through that.

  3. Brody Vercher
    April 14, 2007 at 8:51 am

    Vanessa – Yea, there was a lot of kids in that one house. Hopefully, like Gary, they’ve found that “bounce in their step” once again.

    Baron – I thought it was weird that it was in People too, but maybe that speaks more highly of the reporter than the format, or maybe they were the first to agree to do the ‘story’ on his terms.

  4. Kevin
    April 14, 2007 at 3:25 pm

    I remember Reba McEntire giving her first interview after the plane crash to People, and Olivia Newton-John did so with both her breast cancer and her missing boyfriend. I think People leans toward sympathetic coverage and tends to cover things like this with good taste.

  5. CF
    April 14, 2007 at 4:56 pm

    Thanks so much for posting this: it’s really sad to know he and his family went through this. Hopefully, it can prevent other incidents like this from happening in the future.

    I haven’t had much time to go online the last few weeks because I’ve been really busy, but I’m glad to see how well The 9513 is doing. Thanks for all your hard work!

  6. Brody Vercher
    April 16, 2007 at 12:16 pm

    I guess I’ve just never been wise to ways of People. I’ve always assumed it was just a gossip magazine since it sits at the check-out line with other gossip magazines. But, my girlfriend told me it’s the only one she reads, specifically because it isn’t a gossip magazine.

  7. luckylady
    April 16, 2007 at 3:25 pm

    i think gary has come a long way…just like the song said its been a long year…but hes not close to being over it and he will never be close …angela will aways be with gary , maybe one day he will find someone he could love again i hope so.love ya gary, luckylady here, martha.

  8. Rick F.
    April 17, 2007 at 11:20 am

    I was under the impression that People pays for their “interviews.” That means they will also take “for hire” pieces written by PR flaks. Most magazines don’t do that. Correct me please if I am wrong.

    Funk

  9. Noreen Roth
    April 19, 2007 at 10:12 am

    It broke my heart to read how Gary Allan’s wife died. I knew she committed suicide but I didn’t know their children or Gary were home when it happened. How sad and how difficult it must have been for him. I can only imagine what he was going through. I love the album Tough All Over and got to see him here in Ohio this past summer. He has such a unique voice. I pray that he and his children are healing and that he continues to bring us more wonderful music. Like I heard on the radio yesterday, he’s like the Johnny Cash of this generation.

  10. Carolyn Evans
    May 1, 2007 at 10:29 am

    OMG!! What an article, I cried all the way through it. I to have depression and allergies, with arthritis and I was really concerned with this story. My heart goes out to Gary Allan and his family as well as Angelas family. Carolyn Evans

  11. Nikki Adams
    May 7, 2007 at 6:41 am

    I too share Garys sorrow, and feel his pain. My father took his own life last year, in the same manner as Garys wife. He was alone in the house. I never saw it coming. It leaves me angry, and confused. My thoughts are with everyone who has to go through something like this.

  12. C gridley
    May 7, 2007 at 9:48 am

    Is there a biography about Gary Allan somewhere? I’d like to know how he got into country music to begin with

  13. Brady Vercher
    May 7, 2007 at 11:47 am

    C Gridley: If you’re looking for a book, there isn’t one that I know about. From the few online biographies I’ve read, Wikipedia seems to have the most pertinent information to what you’re looking for, but it’s still not very much.

  14. Harley Lance
    May 14, 2007 at 7:02 pm

    Gary is one of the few male artists of today’s country that I respect, and buy his records. Sad story, and one hopes he has found some peace.

  15. Dakota
    May 18, 2007 at 5:45 pm

    Gary Allan will be on Oprah on 5/24/07. From what I understand, from the website, his part will be about his wife’s battle with depression.

  16. Dori Schindlbeck
    May 25, 2007 at 1:49 pm

    I am 30yrs old and had a brother who commited suicide.It will be two years in August.My brother was 32yrs old at the time.My brother was married with 2 little girls and another baby on the way.
    I was able to watch Gary Allen on Oprah yesterday.I know my sister -in -law is still struggling everyday.i can’t imagine what it must be like to lose the one you love.Also to have to tell the children that there mother or father had past away.

  17. Heidi Hameed
    May 26, 2007 at 11:13 am

    My thoughts and prayers are with you, Gary. I love your music and am thankful that you can share the pain you experience every day. Suicide is such a final thing and right now it seems like the pain won’t go away, but with God’s help, it will be manageable. God bless you.

  18. Olivia
    June 12, 2007 at 4:23 pm

    Aww Gary i’m so sorry about that! I started to cry when I read this. I wish you the best and god bless you…I will pray for you.

  19. Katrina
    July 30, 2007 at 1:37 pm

    My heart goes out to Gary Allan and his children. His music is very honest and passionate. He has a one of a kind voice and has touched so many lives with his songs. I am glad to see him recovering and contiuing to bless us with his music.

  20. Kathleen Murphy
    August 11, 2007 at 4:02 pm

    Dear Gary, I’m so sorry for the loss of your beautiful wife. I, too suffer from depression, a very serious illness. Some people do not consider it an illness, rather an act by a crazy person and that is so not true. No one should ever be mad at a person who commits suicide. It can’t be helped. It’s no reflection on that person’s family at all. I’m so sorry. Your songs are beautiful and so was your wife, Angela.

  21. S.B.
    December 29, 2007 at 12:31 pm

    I know what she went through.

  22. Angela
    January 29, 2008 at 10:52 am

    I lost my first love the same way Gary Allan lost his wife. I continue to go through this whirlwind of emotions. I find myself feeling guilty because I wish I could just forget him. Erase him completely and maybe I wouldn’t hurt so bad. Then I see someone like Gary Allan and I realize that I am not alone in my sorrow and to forget would take away some wonderful memories and until we are reunited someday, memories are all I have of my first love!

  23. LJ
    March 17, 2008 at 3:53 pm

    I would just like to thank Gary Allan for sharing such a gut wrenching tragedy with his fans. On the night of Sept 6, 2006 I was sitting outside listening to “Life Ain’t Always Beautiful” over and over again. I could literally feel the pain in that song. At 2:00am I woke to the pounding of a family friend/deputy letting me know that my father had killed himself. Although, I cannot bring myself to listen to many of Gary Allan’s songs I will always remember how his music touched me at a time when I felt noone else understood what our family was going through. Thanks again Gary for sharing your talent.

  24. kelly
    April 24, 2008 at 11:42 am

    thank you for sharing that story i have had people in my life comitted sucide and u dont know why they did it..least there is closer of why she did what she did. she is in a good place now looking down smiling. she is out of her pain.

  25. Gary Washburn
    May 5, 2008 at 11:49 am

    Gary,
    I dont know if you will ever read this or not, but I am very sorry for your loss. I know it has been a couple of years since this tradegy, but I am certain that you still feel the pain at times. I too am a Country musician away from home alot, so I know some of the thoughts that may have been or still go through your mind. I also have a wife and kids that I miss very much when I am on the road, but thankfully God helps lead us and keep us together. Take care Gary, and may God watch upon Angela and the rest of your family.

    Gary

  26. Holly
    May 28, 2008 at 11:14 pm

    Wow, what a loss. lost my brother to suicide. He didnt tell anyone about it.. but then people who are serious dont tell, do they?
    Its about getting peace of mind for their troubles.
    but, not thinkinng about what they leave behind.
    I’ve learned over time that he is better off.
    so are others that decide to end it for whatever reason.
    We all go on. to cherious whatever memories we have of our loved ones.
    never forget!!
    We all stand behind you Gary!! love your strength!!!

  27. Connie Garcia
    June 26, 2008 at 8:36 pm

    Just to inform the public. Gary you should be so ashamed of yourself. Until today, I loved your songs and knew there was a real reason behind your songs. The guilt you must feel should haunt you for the rest of your life. Your songs making you money over the death you caused. What a sorry way to make a living. The truth is known. You and God know the true reason for your wifes sucide, and believe me you will be judged on judgement day.On the oprah show I don’t understand how you could lie to your fans and mostly to yourself. You are in complete denial. You need to look in the mirror everyday and if you can live with the lies you have told, the so be it. Your life style is truely hurtful. If you don’t think the truth will surface one day then think again. Lies lead to another lie and then your life is based on one big lie. Your life is ONE big LIE. I met one of your wives sisters today and the truth was told. So enjoy your money making life from the life you took. Remember judgement. Yes I was told your wife was depressed and had problems but instead of helping her you hurt her.

  28. josh
    July 3, 2008 at 12:29 pm

    that is the sadest thing i have ever herd i cant even imagine how misserable you would have to be to kill yourself and im srry about some of the other comments people have wrote and i do not believe them

  29. Josh
    August 14, 2008 at 8:36 pm

    Connie Garcia, you are truly a moron. Did you read the article at all? How do you know how their life was? It’s morons like you that are rotting this country with your rash judgements. You call yourself a Christian yet you’re the first one who judges. What a hypocrite. You disgust me.

  30. mary
    September 8, 2008 at 12:29 am

    wow thats the hardest thing to go through but it gets better day by day.

  31. GiGi
    September 12, 2008 at 9:35 am

    To Connie Garcia:
    How can you come on here & leave a comment like that? Do you PERSONALLY know the Allen family? Did you live in their house? Do you know what went on behind closed doors? You are passing judgement on someone who you have no clue about. You are passing judgement based on “hear say”. Who made you God, so that you are able to pass judgement on people & throw stones? You need to practice what you preach b/c as you stated, “you will be judged on judgement day”. How could one person be so cold hearted & down right mean? Have you ever lost someone in this manner? Yes, you are right in one statement that only Gary & God knows what was going on, but YOU ARE NOT GOD, so how can you make a statement like that & then turn around & pass judgement in the same breath?? I totally agree with Josh…you are a hypocrite & you will be the one in the end who suffers the consequences for the words that come out of your mouth. I am also a musician who has struggled with depression & I know personally that when I write music, sing & play my guitar, it is a healing tool for me & I share that with people. It is real life…my life. People heal & grieve differently. Who are you to decide how they choose to do it? I pray that God forgives you. My prayers are with the Allen family & I pray that they can find some sort of peace at the end of the day & cherish the good memories that their family shared.

  32. Cindy2
    September 12, 2008 at 10:27 am

    Ahmen, GiGi. I couldn’t agree more.

  33. Heart Felt Condolences
    October 5, 2008 at 7:37 pm

    This sounds like something that happened to my boyfriend’s mom back in high school. The three of us went out bowling on a Saturday and everthing was fine. He woke up the next morning and she was gone. She had driven out in the country and committed suicide. The next day (Monday) they found the car. The conclusion was that she had a chemical imbalance in her brain. I really do miss her; she was really cool to me because I was three years older than her son. I think about her when I read or hear about something very tragic or simular to what had happened to her.

  34. paula kingdollar
    October 21, 2008 at 1:31 pm

    gary i fell in love with his voice the very time i heard him sign . HE really needs more credit then he gets i think he is one of countrys best male voice in country music at this time. i wish him the best in his life . i just seen him in concert in pa. in aug.2008 plus he is one HOT man!!!!!!!!!

  35. Dana
    October 25, 2008 at 3:54 pm

    I am Angela’s sister. Today is 4 years that she has been gone and the pain is still here. Thank you all for the thoughts and prayers. I’m not sure who Connie is but would like to know why she feels the way she does. As many of you know, there are so many unanswered questions…… I don’t feel like her being gone is Gary’s fault. The doctor (if anyone) I feel is to blame for messing up her medication.
    Thanks, Dana

  36. Heart Felt Condolences
    October 26, 2008 at 10:28 pm

    Dana,
    I am so sorry for the loss of your sister. Nobody really should be blamed for the sad tragedy. Nobody knows when anything like this will happen and probably Angela didn’t know either. She is missed by the whole family I am sure, but she is where she wants to be without the pain. My boyfriend’s mom never once looked ill or was having things badly going on in her life. She woke up one morning and was gone. She was a happy go lucky lady on the outside but I’m sure she was stuggling with issues inside and never spoke of them. She will and always will be missed by her family, Gary and fans of her husband’s. Nobody know why people take their lives, but only God knows and He needed another angel to help in heaven.

    Monica H.

  37. Drew
    October 27, 2008 at 12:45 am

    Wow, that response by “Connie Garcia” is one of the coldest things I’ve ever read… YOU are the one who should be ashamed of yourself.

    This must’ve been such a tough thing to go though… I really can’t even imagine. I’m glad he was able to somehow get through it and continue on with a successful career.

  38. Angry at Allan
    October 28, 2008 at 7:16 pm

    I do personally know the family of his wife. Her mother raises his kids. He does not financially support them. Do you still feel sorry for him?

  39. tiffany
    November 4, 2008 at 3:35 pm

    This is to Gary,
    I am so sorry for what you have been thru, I myself lost a spouse in 98′. I blamed myself for the longest, cause we had a fight that morning. It has taken this long to understand that things just happen. I am a big fan and i was at your alpharetta concert (the crazy girl screaming in the 7th row) but Just so you know I love you and your music, don’t ever stop singing your heart out cause you got me thru my tough times. your biggest fan always Tiffany

  40. themusick
    November 11, 2008 at 10:21 pm

    Gary, I’m so very sorry for your loss. I know nothing will ever come close to replacing your Angela. I truely hope for your best. You are a maganatude to be delt with! My absolute best to you and your’s
    As an Air Traffic Controller. I’m also “Sittin out here lookin @ airplanes” MWA

  41. DAEO
    November 23, 2008 at 9:07 pm

    I feel terrible when tragedy strikes someone’s life, whether I know them or not. I cannot believe the hurtful words that come across in some of these emails.
    I am sure there are people who are hurting and will always hurt from Angela’s suicide and Gary will always be one of those people. The sad thing is, when a tragedy like this happens we always want to blame someone else, not the person we have lost. But in Angela’s case, just like an alcoholic or drug addict, they have to want to help theirself before anyone else can help them.
    Instead of condemning the man who loved her, how about saying a prayer for everyone whom Angela touched for they now have to live everyday without the love of their life.
    GARY, MAY GOD BLESS YOU AND YOUR FAMILY AND ANGELA’S FAMILY AS WELL.

  42. julia
    December 1, 2008 at 5:50 pm

    angryatallan, you don’t know what you are talking about. Angelas’s kids went to live w/ their dad after her death, Gary’s kids live in TN. I will never understand why people just make crap up.

  43. roger hauser
    January 2, 2009 at 12:10 pm

    Gary Allen

  44. Brody Vercher
    January 2, 2009 at 12:15 pm

    It’s Allan with an “a.”

  45. roger hauser
    January 2, 2009 at 12:18 pm

    Gary Allen feels and hurts inside like all of us and to keep spinning tales instead of having hope like we would want for our selves will lead you to no where. Look in the mirror and see what you see. God bless

  46. roger hauser
    January 2, 2009 at 12:24 pm

    Thank you Brody, my mistake. I love his music

  47. roger hauser
    January 2, 2009 at 12:32 pm

    Are you Brody or Brady Vercher?

  48. njgirlie
    February 1, 2009 at 3:07 pm

    this is a good article, but it is so sad what she did, i am sorry for her kids and for gary. now his song, best i ever had, is really making sense

  49. Elaine
    February 7, 2009 at 4:42 pm

    I have been a Gary Allan fan since he came out with “Her man” and found this link quite by accident. I have been to numerous concerts of his and have either bought or have been given every CD he has had. I am appalled by the judgemental jerks, ahhh Connie, that would be you, that feel that to hurl condemnations at others will make themselves feel better. I have to commend Gary for healing in his own way. As for his kids…it really is HIS business and no one elses. Some people need a life. I just want Gary to continue making the best music in the country genre out there. Thanks for being you, Elaine

  50. Kendra
    February 8, 2009 at 4:02 pm

    Just seen Gary Allan at the San Antonio Rodeo. He has such great talent and that voice. I hope he is around for a long while. As he sings you can feel the emotions and that he still misses her. What an awful tragedy and for “some” to think think they are God and can judge him. Connie you need to look deep inside yourself about judgement day!

  51. jr
    February 13, 2009 at 9:21 pm

    I read every comment on this site…I am so ashamed of the human race for people like connie garcia. You will never know what truly happened that night. Only god and angela know. Let it be..let Gary be…let their children be. . . May god bring smiles, laughter and new light to the lives of those effected by this tragedy. We will all die one day..in a manner unknown to anyone but God. Why not live in peace and not judge those we do not know personally. “Life ain’t always beautiful, but its a beautiful ride”…sieze the day.

  52. JOYCE SOENS
    March 24, 2009 at 3:36 pm

    DEAR GARY,

    I HAVE BEEN WHERE YOU WERE TOO!!!! MY HUSBAND HUNG HIMSELF NEAR OUR HOME ON APRIL 10 2005!!! THIS IS SOMETHING THAT I STILL LIVE WITH TODAY!!!!

    I PRAY FOR YOU AND YOUR FAMILY!!!! I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT YOU ARE GOING THROUGH !!!! I WISH THAT I COULD TALK TO SOMEONE LIKE YOU!!!!!!!

    I LOVE YOU AND YOUR MUSIC AND I ALWAYS WILL!!!! I HAVE EVERY ALBUM YOU HAVE MADE AND BEEN TO SEVERAL OVER YOUR CONCERTS!!! YOU EVEN AUTOGRAPHED A PICTURE FOR ME!!!! YOU WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY THOUGHTS, MY HEART AND MY PRAYERS!!!!!!

    I LOVE YOU GARY AND MAY GOD BLESS YOU!!!!!!

    JOYCE

  53. melissa
    March 26, 2009 at 3:42 pm

    I just saw Gary here in Austin, TX at Stubbs BBCUE
    a couple of month’s ago. The emotional pain and loss he has gone through are seen through his eyes and heard through his music. I cannot believe the non-human side that some people have in this world, on second thought, Connie could not be human, she’s probably a lost soul whose lost in her own world or a zombie of some sort…What ever the case I hope GOD is very understanding when her judgement day comes. I met the fiddle player in back of Stubb’s that night and convinced him to get Gary’s autograph on the picture of him on the bed with his guitar for me. He gave me a funny look, but explained I did’nt even have to meet him, just wanted the signature. He went around the tour bus, less than 10 min later, my wish was granted, I told him I am inspiring song writer and will see me in Nashville one day. GARY, MY PRAYERS ARE ALWAYS WITH YOU AND YOUR FAMILY…KEEP DOING WHAT YOUR DOING…YOUR GREATEST HITS CD HAS GOTTEN ME THROUGH HARD TIMES AS WELL AND INSPIRE MY SONG WRITING. I EVEN WENT AND BOUGHT AN ACOUSTIC…I DON’T WANNA BE THE STAR, I WANNA BE BEHIND THE SCENES, SO I HAVE TO LEARN TO PLAY TO GET MY MUSIC OUT THERE. AGAIN THANKS FOR YOUR INSPIRATION GARY..PEACE BE WITH YOU..

  54. sarah
    March 31, 2009 at 11:46 am

    Though Gary may never read this or any of these I pray for him and his children. I saw him In Oregon and I think he has a lot of emotional strength and god bless him, he’s an amazing person.

  55. Angela
    April 14, 2009 at 8:22 pm

    Gary, I just wanted you to know that my entire family loves your music. I have also gained a respect you beyond anyone’s knowing. The fact that you can speak about your wife and her depression is a blessing to me and my family. My sister in law battles depression, and for the longest we did not know what was wrong; but because of your story my brother sprang to action. Thank you so much for being a testimony in this tragedy. -Angela

  56. R M
    April 24, 2009 at 2:49 pm

    I lost my wife 12/31/08 to Suicide it is the hardest thing a person can face.I Think time is the only thing that will help .The hardest part for me is the guilt.

  57. sherri shaffer
    June 14, 2009 at 5:49 pm

    Dear gary i am sorry for your lose of your wife i know how it is when you lose a loved one because i lost my dad to lung cancer in 92 i thing you are doing wondful with your kids and all the thing you have to go thought also i am sorry to hear that some lady brock in your house there you have been though a lot god bless you and know that my prays are with you and your girls sherri

  58. travis
    June 20, 2009 at 3:11 am

    what a sorry wife and mother. doin it at all is horrible but when they were there? he heard the gun shot and will never forget it. she could have told him how she felt rather then havin her family feel it was there fault!

  59. Analicia
    August 4, 2009 at 7:14 am

    I just saw an HBO special on suicide and it’s eerie that I came across this article about Angela. My deepest condolences go out to Gary and his entire family, but I have a hard time comprehending as to WHY she would commit suicide with all 6 kids and Gary in the house. What a horrible horrible thing to witness!!!! God bless you Gary for having the strength to live and love and move on.

  60. Bella Reese
    August 4, 2009 at 7:19 am

    Life is the hard part. Death is the easy way out.
    Knowing how to cope and handle life’s troubles is what makes you a better/stronger person. Gary, may the sun shine down on you and bring love to your life! RIP Angela…

  61. Nicole
    September 9, 2009 at 1:34 am

    The song “Best I Ever Had”…fell soo in love with it and felt a very strong connection to it w/o exactly knowing the meaning behind the song until tonight when I was looking up the lyrics to the song and just happened to land on an article relating to the suicide of your wife. This song would make me cry everytime I heard it and I really could not understand why it would, until now. You see, I too suffer from depression. I have been fighting this mental illness going on 3 years now. I too battle demons everyday like your wife did and let me tell you-it was not your fault! No one can really understand what it feels like to be depressed unless they have gone thru it. It is like two very different people fighting inside you-one wants to live and be happy and the other one is sad and wants to die to be finally be free of the pain. Both sides think about loved ones-the happy one believes they (loved ones) benefit from having the “happy” one around and the sad one feels their loved ones are better off w/o the “sad” one there. I know I am rambling but like I said, it is very hard to explain. I love my husband and three boys very much but sometimes on my bad days it hurts too much to think about anything or anyone else because the pain is so intense. I tried to commit suicide 3 years ago with an overdose and was in a coma for 3 days. Your wife lost her battle but I am still trying to battle mine. Do not ever blame yourself for her dealth because sometimes even with medication the demons still manage to win. God-bless you and your family.

  62. jennifer Reichardt
    October 4, 2009 at 4:52 pm

    My dad comitted suicide 7yrs ago when i was 16. It was and still is the worst thing i have ever went through in my life and would never wish it upon anyone. I started dating my boyfriend 2 years ago and how i could describe my pain was by having him listen to Gary’s cd. It competly helped me realize i wasn’t the only one going through this. I now have a 3 yr old son and named him sfter my amazing Daddy. I know he is looking down on me and him and i will make sure my son knows what a great man he was and to always talk about his feelings.

  63. SUSAN COOPER
    October 20, 2009 at 12:11 pm

    I first heard “Right where I need to be” in 1999, and then I was hooked on Gary’s music. My heart goes out to him, and both of their children as he has had to deal with this devastating loss. I FEEL Gary Allan’s music. He puts so much of himself into everything that he records, and deserves so much more recognition than he gets. But I do understand that he will not change his standard for anyone or anythng. He has endured so much heartache and I applaud him for using his music as therapy. He only gets better. Gary, I see you whenever I can get a chance! I saw you at the House of Blues Houston on 10/16/09 and the SOLD OUT show was AWESOME! It was great to see you in the Foundation Room with all of us afterwards as well. Remember me – COOP (from Orange County, learned to surf in Huntington Beach about 30 yrs ago). We took a pic together! Thanks for that! You are truly a great guy with a great band and great music. Keep it real, and I hope to see you again soon!

  64. loreeta
    October 22, 2009 at 3:34 pm

    i find it odd that she waited for him to come back from taking the kids trick or treating. why not do it while they were already out of the house. there is always two sides to a story. we are only hearing one.

  65. Cindy in Houston TX
    November 1, 2009 at 5:16 pm

    OH Gary! Where do I start? First I want to say that Connie Garcia needs to not pass judgement on anyone. It is sad when anyone takes their own life! But God is the only judge in the end! He is a God of Mercy & Grace. He welcomed Angela into heaven with open arms, that is just the way it is. I lost my Mom in 1979. My little brother was 15 yrs old, came home from school & found our Mom is this same situation. We had lost our father in 1978, he was in a wreck! My mom & he had been married when she was 13 & he was 17. She had 3 kids at 17 & my dad was 20. She was severely depressed after my dad died….It was me & my two little brothers. We had no parents now, but with God at my side I have made it through those terrible nights wondering why? U never understand the why part? Now my brothers both suffer from depression & I do not! It is called a chemical imbalance in the brain you goof ball Connie Garcia! The meds can make u or break u. IT is no one’s fault when a person takes their own life. Life is full of choices, we all make them every day. We have the choice to live or die. Be a drunken fool or make something of our lives. Life is Beautiful! Life is not always a bed of roses, I know it has not been easy for me always. Gary Allan is one great music artist & not bad on the eyes & I am a very happy married woman, but I could listen to his music every day for the rest of my life. He strikes home with his fans. 4-Sure. Go Gary Allan……see u again whenever I get the chance!

  66. jayme reese
    November 19, 2009 at 7:58 am

    All I am gonna say to Connie is judgement day WILL come for all of us!! I have been in a situation where I tried to take my own life and until u have felt that pain…DONT PASS JUDGEMENT!!!!! I seen Gary @ the Ar/Ok fair in Ft.Smith Ar. that was the best concert I have been to my whole life, I would travel a long distance to see him again and my husband has promised we will again soon see him!!!! His music is very inspiring to me, I have all his cd’s & will continue to buy em as long as he records them!!! Gary I hope that ur family as well as Angela’s family knows that our god is an awesome god and he forgives when no one else will!!!! Keep up the good work….UR AWESOME!!!!!!!

  67. Katie
    December 10, 2009 at 2:53 pm

    I think connie Garcia needs to shut her mouth. No one is to judge us, but the good lord himself. What an idiot.

    As for Gary. This is just sad and breaks my heart. I could not imagine. My heart goes out to Gary and his children.

  68. LYNN
    January 1, 2010 at 5:46 pm

    I lost my husband from suicide as well. I was two months pregnant with our first child. Gary Allan’s music was my thearpy and still is. I also had to fight rumors and gossip such as the same sh** that is mentioned in some of the previous emails. How can anyone sit in judgement of anyone? How can anyone be as heartless to say some of the things they do when they don’t know crap? My heart goes out to Gary and his family. My heart goes out for Angela and her family as well.

    Keep on singing Gary. You are the best in my eyes!!! I have loved your music for many years. You have the best voice ever!!!! I can really relate to “Just Got Back From Hell”. That is exactly how I feel.

  69. Steph
    January 7, 2010 at 5:32 pm

    I knew Angela from working with her. She was/is an amazing woman/mother/wife/coworker, etc. I will never forget our conversations and her sharing w/ me how she met you, Gary. To this day I regret not forfeiting sleep to attend your concert with her in Vegas many years ago on our very short layover.

    She had finally found peace in her life w/ the love of her life and a new ‘BIG’ family. Gary I too love and miss your wife! Hang in there! I know from the conversations I had w/ Angie that you believe as I do in the after life. She will welcome you home with open arms and her beautiful smile on her face! Thank you for your music, your talent and for giving Angie her ‘music partner’!

    Life is a journey we all must take. Our lives go down different roads, some with road blocks and others with mountains to climb. We all have choices to make so make the best choice for today. Don’t judge, just love; for you never know what another person is going through!

  70. BJW
    February 3, 2010 at 12:22 am

    I,too,suffer from debilitating migraines and depression. Until you have suffered with them-don’t pass judgment. God bless you, Gary, and your family. May God give you peace.

  71. kathy
    February 5, 2010 at 8:20 pm

    I too, lost a person I loved to suicide. My mother killed herself when I was eleven. I am 49 years old now, I struggle every day to understand how someone can kill themselves and leave behind the people that love them. To me, it is a very selfish choice, whatever the reason!

  72. L G
    February 26, 2010 at 11:52 pm

    connie garcia you need to be quiet until you know what you are talking about – that is Gary’s therapy and the way that he copes and by the way – if it wasn’t for this – I wouldn’t be here today – I have been suicidal and let me tell you it is no fun and you don’t blame anyone but yourself. Thank you Gary Allan – You and Angela saved my life tonight because I called the suicide hotline!!! You both are forever in my thoughts and you in my prayers and I will never stop listening to you because you are an inspiration to me to keep living. Thank you!!!

  73. L G
    February 27, 2010 at 12:03 am

    I also just wanted to say that when you want to commit suicide – you don’t realize how selfish you are being – you believe that you are doing the best thing for everyone in your life – you feel like you are not wanted or cared about so nobody will miss you – we think so wrong because something is really wrong in our lives or due to an imbalance so Steph please forgive your mom – she really thought that she was doing the best thing for anyone – suicide hurts everyone involved but you think that nobody will miss you. I am not trying to be nosy, Steph, I just hope that my testimony can help someone else like Gary and his music and testimony have helped me. Love to all.

  74. L G
    February 27, 2010 at 12:05 am

    Sorry, Steph, I meant Kathy. God Be With You All!

  75. L G
    February 27, 2010 at 12:09 am

    B J W – I feel for you – I know how that is – I struggle with the migraines and suicide thoughts and attempts everyday – I have found peace in Gary Allan’s pain and I wish that there was not all the pain on both sides. It is so hard. Thank you Gary!

  76. LJ
    March 1, 2010 at 8:18 am

    Dana and Gary and the kids…
    I am so sorry about Angela. My son-in-law took his life 17 years ago at the age of 21. It is an act that we, as humans, can never understand, but our sweet Lord does. He is the only one to judge Angela and He understands a broken life. God bless all of you and my God give you peace!

    LJ

  77. LJ
    March 1, 2010 at 8:20 am

    PS…Gary, I love you song, Life ain’t always beautiful. I absolutely LOVE it!

  78. Carrie Cooley
    March 6, 2010 at 2:21 pm

    Gary,

    I’ve been listening to your songs for years and I love them. They all have such meaning and are very heart felt. I just finished reading the comment from Connie Garcia; I cannot believe she had the gaul to say that to you about your wife! If she was any kind of a christian at all she would remember that the bible says “Judge not lest ye be judged!” She has no earthly idea what was going on in your personal life! In fact I guess no one really knows what your wife was feeling, I too have depression and migraines but luckily I’m being treated for both. Sometimes the depression gets me and you can’t know what it’s like and it’s hard to talk to my husband about it. I am so sorry for your loss; but I pray you will find peace. You have many fans that stand by your side.

    God Bless,
    Carrie

  79. Peyton
    March 11, 2010 at 9:24 am

    I agree with Carrie your songs are meaningful and greatly heart felt. I just wanted to say God Bless You and Your Family.

  80. Laura
    March 11, 2010 at 11:18 am

    I have allergie migraines and depression so I very well relate to Angela’s depression with the migraines and not feeling well.. You don’t feel like doing anything..if life is going to be lived like this for the remainder of it, it’s not worth the pain….I myself have said the lately I don’t feel like living any longer if life is going to be like this…I am still suffering but not as bad..I truly understand why shed did what she did… She was truly in pain….My prayer go out to her children and husband so sorry for you loss..I am suffering too with the same problem.

  81. Franco
    April 27, 2010 at 8:11 am

    What a horror… Ironic that tragedy is the inspiration for so much great music…

  82. Tamblyn
    May 29, 2010 at 4:33 pm

    I am truely sorry for your loss.
    3 things I would like to say:

    1) I to suffer migranes and depression
    and have a hard time coping.
    2) I know how you feel I to loss my fiance when
    took his life on Dec. 24, 1986, I was 19yrs
    old.
    3) On Sept. 20, 1996. my youngest brother to
    his life.

    Now with all that said. time heals all wounds,
    we always remember that day we were told/found/heard but all I can say is always remeber the good times you had with your loved one and that were they are the’re no longer in pain. It hurts at first but time will heal all wounds, and that there are always other people out their to share and help with the littlest of incourgement.

    Sincerly
    Tamblyn

    p.s. thank you for your time..

  83. Tamblyn
    May 30, 2010 at 7:01 am

    Just a bit confused, why did they not check to see if she was Bi-Polar, or suffered Post Traunatic Stress Disorder. With all the migranes and depression that would go hand and hand..

    Just a thought..

  84. connie behm
    July 22, 2010 at 7:10 pm

    dear gary so very sorry for your great loss. my little brother killed him self in 88 the same way. my baby sister was shot and killed by her ex. then he killed himself while there 5 year old and 5 month old baby where in the house. this was in 2000. i still think of her a 1000 times a day and i miss her pretty smile. it dose get a little easier to live with but you will never forget. i have been a fan from the begining. love your voice. will be seeing you in hankinson no.dak in august. take care. keep on giving us your great music. god bless….

  85. nancy wing
    September 6, 2010 at 3:57 pm

    first of all i love garys music and have for years he is one ofthe best i think that nashville over looks that . now connie garcia I would like to know when GOD gave you wing and a halo , i think your wing are broken and your halo has been taken back .GOD is the judge of our lives and only him got it maybe you should think before you speak.!!!!GOD BLESS YOU GARY !!!! IF YOU EVER NEED TO TALK I’AM HERE KEEP UP THE GREAT SINGING MAYBE ONE DAY I WILL BE ABLE TO SEE ONE OF YOUR CONCERTS, SMOKES IN THE DARK IS ONE OF MY FAVORITE SONG, really all you songs are great !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  86. Taylor
    October 25, 2011 at 8:23 am

    Its been exactly 7 years today, and i still miss her. Angela was my God mother, she was a wnderful, caring person, and I am deeply blessed to have her in my heart.

  87. David
    February 13, 2012 at 7:00 pm

    Maybe Gary Allan should see that that Angela three children receive some of the song royalties he’s made off their mothers death. He is a profitting off thier pain. The guys is a bumb. And should look out and take care of his late wires children

  88. Timmy Tommy
    February 14, 2012 at 4:12 pm

    The whole Gary Allan thing was frustrating. I liked his music and bought his first three albums. But I didn’t ilke his “Tough All Over” album, and how critics praised him for recording this dark album after the death. Many of those songs weren’t really all that great and I felt that the critics were buying into a narrative about music following life and that kind of stuff rather than focusing on the fact that Gary has a so-so voice at best and if the songs aren’t hook laden or otherwise good, his music just isn’t that great. And when Allan focused more on releasing an album about death he picked songs that were about those dark themes rather than picking the best songs. Thus the album really suffered and critics praised him. I’m glad country radio has given Gary Allan the boot. He’s a washed up country singer, and he was more of a critics choice than a fan’s choice. Singers like that don’t belong on radio, where the fans – not the critics – listen.

  89. Hayley
    June 29, 2012 at 5:46 pm

    Timmy, To each his own. He is my favorite more recent country artist. Not so-so. He is a staple and still hear him on the radio:)

  90. Margaret Minor
    July 22, 2012 at 9:26 pm

    I worked with Angela, she was one of the nicest people I had ever met, she was slender, simply beautiful! We had a crew layover in Nashville, we went to lunch at the Old Spaghetti Factory restaurant. She told me how she had met Gary on a flight, sitting next to him in F/C. That she did not know who he was but shared that she liked to write music. They hit it off, and the rest was history.
    She did share that he was gone a lot and that she had all 6 kids to care for at times. When we got to the airport that day, first thing she did was look up how well his latest song was doing on the charts.
    She seemed happy to me and I was genuinely shocked when a company email went out about her death. I called the manager on duty to find out details but they didn’t have any further info. I found out about her suicide that way. So sad.
    She was wonderful, down to earth, and nice. I still think about her and what a nice time we had going to lunch that day in Nashville. You are missed!
    RIP Angela, you have angel wings now.

  91. Cheryl
    August 27, 2012 at 8:56 pm

    Still hurts to read about Angela, I feel so sorry for Gary. No one has the right to criicize him, you can’t believe everything you read !! RIP Angela

  92. TJ
    September 24, 2012 at 1:43 am

    here’s a story loaded with irony. I was a radio personality in Atlanta when he was making it big, and I was there first hand with the hookups w/ the waitresses and shot girls at Cowboys when he would play there.

    I was there when I almost got in a fight w/ my girlfriend at the time because it was her birthday, she ended up on the stage and he was grabbing on her and whatnot.

    Then fast forward a few years later, and I hear that his wife has taken her life. I’m looking at the press release and the wife looks like Angie Forsythe, a girl I had known since the 8th grade in Cleburne Texas, my hometown.

    I wish to GOD I could go back in time and tell him what a total and complete dirtbag he was for cheating on her over and over. That’s probably why she was so depressed.

    Angie was a dear friend all through my childhood and had I known backstage what I knew now, you might’ve gotten to read a different story, where a local radio personality in Atlanta whipped his little cocky wanna be surfer boy @zz….

    RIP Angie…

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